Withdrawing Realizations

Nothing like loneliness to keep one company.

Nothing like lies to delude ourselves from reality,

Blocking out everything, living

Nothing but my own.

                (I always was forgotten).

Memories of nothing, blindly living

Warped sense of reality keeps the

Pieces of me together like that industrial glue

That always breaks after a week or so.

      (Never should have let this begin).

Cycles coming, cycles going, each one the same,

Sweet words of promises,

Hope, friendship, each and all

Broken once again

       (From all sides, it kills me)

Emotions going, indifferent to those losing myself ,

Setting goals, getting milestones, forgetting those who

Say otherwise, don’t worry about them.

                 (No, Don’t worry. It’s just you and me,

                       like it always has been, just like it should)

Pouring out bleeding ink, the white flag gives up, turning to black

And floating away to somewhere where

Peace can be found.

                (because here is too hurtful

                Painful, it’s suffocating us)

Water, pure water, washing away

Everything unwanted, that dogs our

Pores, blocks our passages, keeps us

Awake at night.

                (Basically what we were

                To you, so we want to

                Wash away what you do to us

                Even if it means getting rid of the problem itself,(you)).

So I’ll sit by the window

Watch the rain fall as I reorganize myself,

Taking my loneliness and

Making it my companion once again

Because that’s the way it always

Was.

                (Keep, up, Don’t give up

                I’ll always be here for you

                No matter what)

So say goodbye to everything as I become myself again

The way I was no, close to the way I was,

Without you, except I’ll be different. Because I realize that,

Since you don’t need me and

You never did, that I won’t need you and I’ll stop pining away

For something that you won’t give.

                (Because I can get that,

                From me. I never needed you-not once).