I found myself in a Grocery Store

I found myself in the grocery store,
humming to myself.
I looked at the reflection
that played back in
the freezer isle
    (the one with the glass doors, like the one to my heart)

I found myself different as
I chose which lettuce to use
different from the influence of you
    (Since when did I eat lettuce?)

I found myself making small talk
to the store cashier
talking about the weather
and the odd dream here and there.
    (Since when did I get the nerve to speak to random strangers?)

I found myself staring longingly
to the sky, wishing the stars
the best as the withered away
wondering where the term 'us' went to or came from?
     (I haven't heard that term used in awhile)

I found myself coming home to an
an empty apartment, a change I saw
coming,
the cats lounging around on my bed,
    (Well not --completely-- empty though the cats aren't a great
     a conversationalist as you were.)
I found the lonesome sigh of that long ago 'I knew it" that always came across

I found myself losing strength
crying into my pillow-trying
not to wish things had
gone differently
     (Because no matter my broken heart, shattered, it was for the best- and you
      had mentioned in passing you only wanted what was best for me.)

I found myself wiping away my tears,
and gleamed back to the empty living room
where my cats sat
wishing to play
     (Because freedom is the best thing I could have gained, no longer
      a caged bird, feeling obliged to sing for you)

I found myself a happier person
romping away the loneliness
with my cats, than to dwell on it
      (It was your idea that things in the past should stay there, that I shouldn't
       worry so much, I guess you were right)

The newspaper came--but I ignored it,
finding myself perfectly content
to sleep in a quiet bed with two cats
by myself
       (They never were able to sleep with me as they wanted, due to the lack of
         room, but they sure do enjoy the quality time now--I doubt they really miss
         you)

I found myself staring in the
mirror-smiling
    (Because you always wanted me to, and I guess it does feel more natural now)
I found myself-here today,
with no regrets.